Gypsy-Chip

sometimes I miss you I don't understand why or how but the ache inside me becomes a physical saddness i can't bear... this isn't... the echo of your laughter and the sounds of your tears the warmth of your hand over mine ... the tenderness in your every touch.... is that a lie? I can see the rage in your eyes at the tearing honesty of lies to your every breath of trust... sometimes I can't fathom how hard this really is... and then ... I realize why and it doesn't hurt so much to miss you

a faceless endless void a voice beyond deapth and without reason words that flow like rapid waters lost in windmills raindrops from clear blue skies. there is no sense to the rage

there's this skit that sometimes plays in my mind... its just a few friends at the bar... one set of girls and one of guys... girls talking and somewhat emotional to friends who listen... to the best friend that still tells her the truth... the other guys with the bantar and bullshit and another round... as girls do... the guy bitching and wanting to understand why the hell she's like that... and the girl wishing he just gave a fuck and could understand... then one of the guys friends... an older fella with grey hair and a lotta soul in the eyes... just hands the kid a shot.. and replies... because... she's having to explain to someone e

there is nothing here by way of silence the mind altering shades of light to ease the constants simplify the reflection and listen to the softeness of fingertips brittle lips hold back withered tongue pearl white lies hang sweetly like the still shot of a hummingbirds wings.

 I woke this morning with a smile to mirror the tears in my eyes, the gentle calm and pull of my longing for you ever apparent when I wake alone... I smell your touch on my skin and your kiss on my lips. I feel the warmth of your breath on my neck and my skin still prickles from the cool of the morning sun. I dreamt of you last night. I dreamt of words yet to be said and of hands never left unheld, I saw your eyes and felt the intesity of your heart. I told you the secrets of my heart and gave room to only you and God in my soul. You made promise of forever, and I made admittance to the same... I woke this morning with the weight of al

... I couldn't contain my smile late last night... I wish I couldn't every night.   thank you for that.

take down the walls and step out from the places I've been hiding. let myself be seen for all that I am... silly and sweet and insicure at times a firecracker held in too tight strings and wound up tightly while dancing in the rain... sparks flutter like fireflies and laughter hurts the hearts aching beat... smiling to hide the sincerity of my missing love and memories that made to bad dreams... letting go of long past history and trying to re-make the girl I was meant to be... talks with a mother that never quite mothered me forgiveness for a father that all but destroyed the innocence I should have been... a catalyst of experience and searc

... I know this is my fault... I miss you. I've no way to stop without you. I don't want to be without you.   Come here...           give me the chance to never let you leave again.